Love Hate Relationship…

I need you, but I always neglect you…
I see you and I often overlook you…
I know you, yet haven’t a clue who you are…
I hear your voice, but do not listen…
I am all you want, though I feel inadequate for the job…
You are in my heart even as I am not…
I desire to grow so near to you, and I long to run away…
Though you give me courage, I am afraid of you…
Despite that we are complete opposites, I feel you and I can be at oneness…
I trust you implicitly, but I cannot trust anyone…
You break me down then build me up…
Although I am empty, I am filled by you…
In your midst I have inner turmoil and utmost peace…
I long to give in, but I want to stand my ground…
You make me hungry and you satisfy…
I’ve loved you and I have hated you…
Believed in, yet denied and abandoned you…
I have tasted your richness, but impoverished words flow from my tongue…
I vowed to live for you, and haven’t followed through…
I said I’d die for you, but have to admit I wouldn’t do that either…
The joy you birthed in creating me is surpassed by the pain of living…
Yet the pain you made, this world of misfortune, is eclipsed by the bliss of being alive…
I am numb, but can feel you…
Try as I may to stay immune to your love, it is highly contagious…
I aim to do justly, love mercy, and walk humbly…
In the end, I’d be happy just walking and humbly recieving mercy and love…

- Craig Morrison