Poetry -:- Monkfish Abbey

1996

Mirror, mirror in your eyes,
I see but one reflection
and it’s stolen my disguise.
Hard to recognize and
unable to understand.
Happiness erupts where
my sadness ran.
You tear down my walls,
you burn down my bridges –
only to step over the destruction
and hold out your hand.
Who am I and
what have I become?
It’s funny how my wrongs
evolved into rights -
my darkness has […]

The Garden

A waterfall.
Soft rain falling around me.
A walk in the cool, green garden.
Holding my hand,
you gaze down at me.
Reassuringly,
lovingly,
protectively,
you lead me to the place.
I watch you die again,
and you forgive me.
A tear falls -
Blood has been shed.
You take my hand –
I feel so loved.
- Alicia LaJoie

So Far Away

So far away
do I want to go or stay?
Loneliness is an envelope -
a slippery slope.
Is there any light up ahead?
So close that I can’t breathe.
The fire – it burns hotter.
Burn me, consume me –
I need your flame.
I can’t leave.
All around me –
the community that I see.
Loneliness in my rearview
it gets more and more distant.
You be […]

Silent Meditation

12/4/2003
In the quietness of my soul,
I find you.
The peace surrounds me and
fills my spirit with your radiance.
The stillness overwhelms me,
it gives me water to drink.
I light a candle in remembrance,
in prayer for those who are lost.
Hundreds of voices awaken me –
my life comes alive in their harmony.
Be still, my busy mind.
Let God permeate and swell.
My […]

Seasons In Life

Sunset – like a season,
it comes and goes.
Whether we like it or not.
Sometimes beautiful,
sometimes dark,
sometimes mediocre,
never empty.
Seasons pass like a breeze,
a breath of life.
Will I choose to enjoy
The warmth of autumn?
The chill of summer?
The desolation of spring?
Or the rebirth of winter?
The sun will rise,
life will continue.
I will learn and grow.
Teach me to keep going.
- Alicia […]

Don’t Give Up On Me

You are my hiding place –
I take solace in your being.
You enfold me.
how can I leave?
Who says that I want to leave?
Everyday, I have to die.
Die to the idea,
die to the thought,
die to my inner self –
the things that draw me away.
Lord, take me back –
don’t give up on me.
I don’t want to leave.
- Alicia […]

Desperation

My heart aches.
Breaks, cracks, shatters
Hear me, Hear me now.
Will you?
Where is your voice?
Suffering, hurting, dying.
Help me, Help me now.
Will you?
I need you.
Desperate, anticipating, please.
Love me, love me now.
I know you will.
- Alicia LaJoie

Affected

A piano playing a sweet melody,
the keys tug at my heart.
You transform my soul.
I yearn for the beat that changed the rhythm of my heart.
My mind is clear -
the beat becomes one with me.
I allow it to take over –
Reluctantly, recklessly
take over.
Affect me. Change me.
Make my heart beat with yours.
My veins pump with your blood.
Wash […]

Nothing…

I met with my Creator last night, the maker of the universe… He said nothing… After the initial shock of being in the presence of All That Matters and yet is No Matter, I ceased the effort to comprehend the limits of his imagination. I asked, “What is your name?” He said nothing… I understood […]

Love Hate Relationship…

I need you, but I always neglect you…
I see you and I often overlook you…
I know you, yet haven’t a clue who you are…
I hear your voice, but do not listen…
I am all you want, though I feel inadequate for the job…
You are in my heart even as I am not…
I desire to grow so […]